*whine*
I know you don’t want to read this. I feel terrible because everyone posts really inspirational/witty/intellectual/astonishing stuff on this blog… yet I’m talking about my lie.
So, i’m sure you read my post yesterday where I admitted to lying about a date.. well, all I was doing was being silly saying that I was on a date at max brenner, cos I was with a girlfriend, but then people started commenting and it was funny.. then *DATEBOY* commented, and I had to continue it then, because I couldn’t let him think I was so lame as to make it up, then he’d think it was to make him jealous and that I am more immature than he originally thought.. so I stuck with it. I thought it would be forgotten by today, but everyone is still messaging me asking me how my date was. I feel terrible lying. So i’m admitting here.
Please don’t tell my secret. hahahahaa <3
My confession.
I lied on Facebook about going on a date. Perhaps I did it to make someone jealous, although I think I did it because I want him to care. I want him to want me. I realise this will not work, so here is my confession.
My life, just after turning 21..
2007. Thank god it’s over.
I loved. I lost. I lost. I lost. Yeah, I pretty much lost.
In losing, I gained valuable lessons. No matter how much you would like to change something – sometimes you just can’t. Memories won’t bring them back; yet they’ll keep their presence close. You can cry every night until you can’t breathe – but it won’t change anything.
Life is thrown at us. We have no choice but to take it as it is. It truly is a gift and we often do not realise how lucky we indeed are.
Few times I opened up to people, I have been let down. In saying this, I have not given up on people. I have just realised I must be more particular in the people I choose to let in. You can’t let people get you down. Alone time is therapeutic for a sad soul, and people much prefer an empty smile.
I stayed straight for the whole year, and simultaneously realised that people can (and will) fuck you up far more than any drug. We can only blame ourselves.
2007 has shown me who my true friends are. Unfortunate events came with an upside in regards to a lesson of value. It matters not who is there to share your joy, yet those who where there for me at my lowest, most vulnerable states are the ones I will be true to for the remainder of my life.
I don’t want to fight or have ill feelings or pretend to like anyone anymore. I’ve grown and realised that once someone touches your heart, they are part of it forever. Everyone leaves their own mark – even if it is a scar. Scars are better than open wounds.
I’ve realised people come into our lives for a reason. I have to learn to stop being so ‘disappointed’ when they leave, and rather I should in fact be quite satisfied at the things they themselves have taught me, whether it be about people, life, love, or in some cases – myself. I hope in the years to come, I am able to embrace things fully, yet equally as quick to move on with a smile.
I turned 21 and received the key of life! This is an idea I found entertaining, as I feel age does not unlock anything, quite the contrary! Age locks our feelings and minds away. Perhaps the key is used as a symbol to remind us that youth is what keeps us alive and open! We have the need for youth in our lives; we need to see through a Childs eyes. Maybe then the simple things will again, be enough.
My break is nearly over, but I hope 2008 brings with it many shared smiles and memories. No matter how hard we work for our money, the money will not buy us back the time.
2008? Bring it.
(Obviously written in my work break. 30th Dec 07).
One of the many reasons I adore Hanson..
The future of giving.
It is funny to think about charity today, what does it really mean to be philanthropic? Today we buy goods from across the globe, we touch base with others on a daily basis from our cell phones … and through Myspace. We trade ideas and philosophies with people in our classroom and in classrooms across the world in an instant. So why if there are so many ways that we use technology and our growing access to information and ideas for our daily life – why can’t we use those same daily actions and interactions to reach those in need.
We went to Africa for the first time in mid 06. We went there to learn, as the laymen that we were. We wanted to see for ourselves with our own eyes the tragedies that had been reported by CNN. What we saw was not a statistic. We saw real people and real solutions in action and what blew us all away was that there was less despair than we had anticipated. We saw doctors with ideas, kids with hope and the resolve of committed aid workers.
Our journey to support AIDS research began for real when we decided to step into the game in a way that was in our sphere of influence. We used what we had, our music. Thousands of downloads meant a real impact for many children fighting AIDS and poverty – that was the beginning.
That one song and the idea of the giving what we could and reaching others with ideas and passion, has lead us to do one mile barefoot walks before every concert on our tours since last fall – we have walked 76 miles barefoot in snow, and sleet, in blistering heat and rain … and thousands of people have joined us. Through the efforts of MANY that have walked with us we have helped a great company called TOMS shoes give thousands of shoes. The goal now is to log every mile that is walked and make every mile count for a dollar – given by us to a cause that makes a real difference on the ground.
Our walk is not fantastic, it is not grand, but that is exactly why it matters. We are a generation that is over prepared and under estimated. What would happen if each of us just took the walk. Join us for the next week and see what happens.
Walk on – HANSON
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